sunflowers, why don't you look at me?
i may not be your sun but why can't you see,
i bring the light for you,
burning myself across the creek.
i doubt it.
i douse myself, and see, if i burnt myself right.
i guess, i have figured it out now, what went wrong.
i'll light myself up better this time.
if i strike the match really slow and ignite the flames through my chest first,
i won't be in grief this time that
you didn't look at me.
let me try again.
this time,
from the top of my head.
so that i won't hold any resentments.
so this time, will you talk to me?
i can't hear you, and
that's okay.
this time,
i'll start the burning from my ears.
so i won't die to hear your sound,
for the words i don't get to hear.
but why won't you still look at me?
lord knows how many times,
i'll try different ways to burn myself up.
i'd rather be in ashes,
if i can't be the sun to you.